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an ego that would swallow you whole //mod
28 June 2014 @ 10:12 pm
The fucking boredom and lack of companionship is what I feel is pushing me under the water the most.
an ego that would swallow you whole //mod
28 June 2014 @ 02:02 pm
This is one of the few places I can vent to without worrying about it.

Mike left today. Well, he is leaving today. He's packing up the rental car and then he's leaving.

13 years, 6 of marriage. Done. 1/3 of my life and it's going away.

I'm scared and I'm ill and I don't know how the hell I'm supposed to adjust to this.

I'm just going to be crying a lot at first I guess. I don't know. I've been going from anger to disbelief to fits of crying at breakneck speeds. I just have to keep breathing. I just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other. Tell myself it's for the best - we don't want the same things and that we'd have to morph into versions of ourselves that we'd hate to keep this afloat.

I love him and I always will but it wasn't meant to be.

I hope he knows how much I'll miss him and how much he means to me.
an ego that would swallow you whole //mod
25 March 2012 @ 03:27 am
I really ought to make myself some new icons. xD
And post more.
And be more sociable.

I'm also going through my gif folder and some of my favorites are corrupted. Le sad.
Mood: contemplative
an ego that would swallow you whole //mod
08 February 2010 @ 05:42 pm
On Friday I asked to go home from work about an hour into it because of the pain I was in. I was perspiring profusely, and my entire body was cramping up. My boss was more than understanding and found me a replacement within minuets. I went home, decided to take some medication instead of being stubborn and went to sleep.

The weekend carried on as they usually do, small pangs and cramps sprinkled throughout the day but nothing to make me think it wasn't par for the normal.

But today... these cramps are absolutely ridiculous. I've taken medication but I refuse to take more than I should. I literally feel like someone is punching me in the waist and every time the pain subsides they punch it again.

I just wanted to complain. Carry on!
an ego that would swallow you whole //mod
02 January 2010 @ 02:15 pm
So, now that 10 is gone and Simm!Master is too I must reveal that while I love the ever fuck out of John Simm, I'm really at a loss for words on what they did to him and the Master.
Fantastic is still the best catchphrase.Collapse )
an ego that would swallow you whole //mod
20 December 2009 @ 12:36 pm
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive.
Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
Music: Empire of the Sun - Without You | Powered by Last.fm
an ego that would swallow you whole //mod
05 October 2009 @ 01:37 pm
Someone post all my holiday pictures for me, I'm being mopey and lazy.
Music: The Hoosiers - Killer | Powered by Last.fm
an ego that would swallow you whole //mod
18 September 2009 @ 05:54 am

London-town hotel.

Dublin-town hotel.
Music: La Roux - In For The Kill | Powered by Last.fm
an ego that would swallow you whole //mod
17 September 2009 @ 04:09 am

"It is the nature, and the advantage, of strong people that they can bring out the crucial questions and form a clear opinion about them. The weak always have to decide between alternatives that are not their own."
Dietrich Bonhoeffer

Music: Coldplay - 42 | Powered by Last.fm
an ego that would swallow you whole //mod
15 September 2009 @ 02:00 pm